SAD=seasonal affective disorder=winterdepression=the word disorder makes me feel retarded

everything is boring.
i have nothing to do
i have no money
i have no job
i don't feel like listening to anything on my ipod
i hate all of my clothes
i don't want to go outside because it's wet, cold and constantly dark
i don't want to stay at home because it feels like i'm missing out on my youth (ridiculous, i know)
i have nothing to read
i am so bored the only thing i do is eat even though i'm so full i feel sick